Dressing Room Discourse

Since I am starting a new job next year, it was imperative that I revamp my wardrobe. I need almost everything – new slacks, skirts, tops, shoes, purses, etc. I know, it’s terrible that I have to go shopping for all of these items. No, really… it’s terrible. Last summer I was shopping for a size 16. This summer I am shopping for a size 18. It didn’t fully hit me until today when I was trying on clothes in New York & Company. (EVERYTHING was on sale! I got pants for 80% off!) Everything I tried on that was a size 16 was too snug. Actually, using the word snug would imply that it was just barely too tight. Had I kept them buttoned and walked around, the buttons would have flown off, hitting me in the eye, rendering me blind.

I listened to the girl in the dressing room asking for a pair of paints in a size 12. In a size 12 voice she said to Size 2 Saleswoman, “I used to be an 18 and now I’m a 12. Sometimes I grab the wrong size because I just forget!” S2S gushed about how great it was to have lost that much weight and she was RIGHT. It is, and S12 should be proud, but it still made me roll my eyes. I felt like poking my head out and saying, “I was a 24 and then a 16!... and now an 18.” but that would make me seem somewhat like a baby, so I refrained. Instead I just looked at myself sadly and kept trying on article of clothing after article of clothing.

Then the dressing room next to me became occupied by someone else with an even tinier sounding voice. “Oh my GAWD! I thought I was a size FOUR but I am a ZERO!” Ugh.  

I started reading Geneen Roth’s book, “Breaking Free from Emotional Eating”. My kindle has informed me that I am 5% through the book, and one of the first things it says to do is keep a food journal, which I HATE doing because I feel like I barely have time to sit and blog, how am I supposed to write down everything I eat?! And not just the item, but also how I’m feeling before and after. At this point, I have nothing to lose but the weight! I won’t blog as often as I food journal, but hopefully between the journaling, blogging, and biking I’ll be able to see some more progress soon.

Words of advice are welcomed and appreciated. J